Even the best of writers have doubt, it’s called ego, old behavior, internal editor, self-sabotager, whatever you want to call it, doubt is still part of us. We’ve been shown this emotion and fear, it’s hard to get away from it when the ego knows how to use it against us. It’s been like this for a while, ever since we’ve been conditioned, it happens to the best of us. The ego is doubt, our writing is natural, who we really are. The trick is to let the writing take over and ego can be sent to the corner with a big old dunce cap on it. Sometimes this happens, sometimes ego wins and doubt grows rapidly, but our true state is stronger and will kick ego’s butt!
So, how do we dissolve ego and gain our writing life? Write more, don’t give up, commit to the writing life. Find your voice and work towards the bigger picture. I lean towards Julia Cameron’s, The Artists Way and The Right to Write and work with the exercises that steer my writing voice on the right path.
One exercise from the Artist’s Way:
Ten Tiny Changes: List ten changes you’d like to make for yourself, from the significant to the small or vice versa (get new sheets so I have another set, go to China, paint my kitchen, dump my bitchy friend Alice) Do it this way:
I would like to____________________
Try it out and see what unfolds.
Trusting our creativity is new behavior for many of us. It may feel quite threatening initially, not only to us but also to our intimates. We may feel – and look-erratic. This erraticism is a normal part of getting unstuck, pulling free from the much that has blocked us. It is important to remember that at first flush, going sane feels just like going crazy.
There is a recognizable ebb and flow to the process of recovering our creative selves. As we gain strength, so will some of the attacks of self-doubt. This is normal, and we can deal with these stronger attacks when we see them as symptoms of recovery. ~ Julia Cameron
Trust yourself and tell that self-doubter to get to the corner and get a good book to read because it’s going to be there for some time. I know there is self-doubt, but I also know my true self is stronger, for me, it’s about one moment of time.
Until next time, keep on typing….