I am grateful for this fresh new day full of possibilities; I seem to be writing this more and more in my morning pages, and it’s true when you get to that place when you recognize that each day is a blessing, to be alive, to be given the opportunity to experience one more day. I am trying to live each day with the fullest intention of living a creative life and really dive in deep with each experience. Yes, there is a but….but my ego and daily life can take over at times, like going to your 8-9 hr a day job, how much time could you be spending on your passion rather than be at a job that you may not like or know that it’s not what you should be doing, you know that your creativity is calling out to you, well at least that’s what it does to me.Another but….I do like my more-than-full-time job, at times, I am at a place where I am developing myself, I have personal growth and career growth at my job and when it doesn’t feel like work at all. What’s that they say about if you love your job it doesn’t feel like work?
I try to live by Julia Cameron’s, The Artist’s Way to the fullest, and I take my morning pages very seriously. I have been doing them for over seven years now and I feel so connected to myself through these three pages that begin my day. The one thing that my ego has a little bit of old behavior attached to it, is God. Julia refers to the creator as God and that’s fine. We all have a name for our higher power that we put our faith in, ourselves in. Julia does address the word God and for me, it’s a high power, knowing there is a something beyond me, this earth, this physical form. I am very open-minded and I also practice Wicca, prayer and lots of meditation. I would say that I meditate more than anything, I love to sit and be still to get grounded and if there is a message I am to receive it will come through this time of meditation, but then again as a creative person a lot of the story ideas I receive come at any time. Don’t you love when you get a great story idea in the shower?
One of the chief barriers to accepting God’s generosity is out limited notion of what we are in fact able to accomplish. we may tune tot he voice of the creator within, hear a message, and then discount it as crazy or impossible. On the one hand, we take ourselves very seriously and don’t want to look like idiots pursing some patently grandiose scheme. On the other, we don’t take ourselves – or God (higher power) – seriously enough and so we define as grandiose many schemes that, with God’s help, may fall well within out grasp. ~ Julia Cameron
We tend to, and I have, never consider how powerful our higher power really is for us. We will set limits on how much God, or a friend, boyfriend or ourselves can give or help us. We might get or give ourselves a gift but we are the first person who will give it back because we don’t trust, we don’t believe, we set limits that we think we have to set.
I have said before that creativity is a spiritual issue. Any progress is made by leaps of faith, some small and some large. At first, we may want faith to take the first dance class, the first step toward learning a new medium. Later, we may want the faith and the funds for further classes, seminars, a larger work space, a year’s sabbatical…God (higher power) as my source is a simple but completely effective plan for living. It removes negative dependency – and – anxiety – from our lives by assuring us that God will prove. Out job is to listen for how. ~ Julia Cameron
At this point I am itchy from the word God. I have some past stories that make me understand why, but I know that God is just my higher power, the universe, my guardian angels that I trust and have faith in. So I had to let go of the negative past feelings of God to move forward with Julia’s work. I had and have faith in Julia.
One was we listen is by writing our morning pages. At night, before we fall asleep, we can list areas in which we need guidance. In the morning, writing on these dame topics, we find ourselves seeing previously unseen avenues of approach. Experiment with this two-step process: ask for answers in the evening; listen for answers in the morning. Be open to all help. ~ Julia Cameron
I did this very thing; I asked a question and I got an answer and I trusted every moment. I wanted to be off to write but also needed an income to pay for the basic’s; rent and food. I was given an opportunity. I’ve written about this before, but this is a great reminder for me, to remember that the universe provided for me when I trusted faith. I was laid off from my job and I was able to collect unemployment insurance that covered rent and food; and I was able to write when ever I wanted. I wasn’t limited to the times where I had to be at “work”. I could write early in the morning, afternoon or late into the evening, and I did. I was so grateful for such an opportunity and I am still grateful for what I am being provided to maintain this beautiful creative life that is fully intended.
The only limits out there are the ones we put on ourselves. It is time to strip away the limits, the self attack talk, and really jump in with two feet.
Until next time, keep on typing….